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13.11.04

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wall climbing!!!!

yepdid the thing that i never thought i would do...wall climbing. why? because ever since that faithful day in hong kong i was kinda scared of heights or as i like to put it...i am scared to death of dying...neiwey it was uber fun! and the instructor kept on insisting that i was a hs or rather grade school student grr...im not taht cute am i hahahahah jke jke jke =] they were fun to chat with....
eventhough i only got to the top 1 tym [out of 4 tries..how lame of me] ok...it was like this:

1st try: i got to the top though my arms were killing me...oh yeah while i was on the top the guy holdin the rope bellow suddenly brought out this cutter and lighter and i was like 'oi bullshit dont get that anywhere near my life line!' turns out they were trying to fix the rope something about the threads...
2nd:was for free [our 75 only gave us 2 tries] because this girl was shy on climbing alone...so there i was arms aching and all climbed..up to i think 3/4 but then my arms started to hurt [hey 6-7 months without any training?what do you expect?] so i quit
3rd: tried got to the 1/2 of the wall but damn hands kept on letting go of the 'rocks'
4th:1/4 then got my hands burned...so they decided to just let me stop...

hey even if it was that bad...i wont let that get me down..ill keep on trying until i could climb the horizontal thing...wish me luck!

new sem..new classes....new aura?

i havent upgraded this thing for ages...but i kept on cheq'n it...regularly on our it class yess i have an it class this sem and i was dissapointed because of the thing that they are teaching in that particular class...word?powerpoint?whatever!?like im an idiot in this things..shit...neiwey about the classesi was seperated from my kada!omg..i was so sad because to think that aif[my cousin and my constant comuting buddy] was on sec D and the girls in the alliance was on C and i was left on the middle...section B..i mean i dont have anything against those people they are really cool and all but the aura thing still somehow bothers me...dunno maybe im still adjusting and shit..but somehow things are turning up =] i mean i have a group mow called the bf [bading foundation] founded by pochai the number gay person in our class[hahahha just joking ruby hehe] and im starting to like the people in our class they're all nice and studious and shit but its cool =] and they keep the boring subjects livelier heck even our teache said so..so im hoping that with in 5 months of our classes and extensive bonding[i hope] i would grow to love them because for sure as hell that i already respect them =]

in search of something...

no its not a boy!not even a thing...then what is it you ask?my happiness...that carefree happiness taht i used tohave before that earth shattering event..i know move on and shit and yes i think im on my way to that and not having a cell is helping and having a new crush too heheheh neiwey about tha that happiness im gonna look for it even if i have to go surfing or climb all that wall thing even if i have to sing all that happy or mushy song in our class ill do it!i want that blinding happiness again..that thing that even that dreaded WHY cant ruin...so from now on if i really have to talk to everyone or even be extra genki and gay and all ill do it...i want that thing that i have lost to someone not even worth it and maybe...befriend him again to stop this stupid bullshit between us....

[i try to fool myself to think ill be alright]

Another Beach Bum slept after13.11.04....