·cHa_12·
·right now im feeling...
aka:cHa|chatoh|charisse|chic¤
loves to play basketball¤optimistic?
¤cheerful¤bubbly?¤
childlish¤hates school hehe Ü
¤slow...=þ¤loves the
number 12[duuuhh]¤always[?]infatuated
never inlove...;)¤confused¤observant
¤addicted to candy[anykind]
¤LOVES to eat¤
and will eat almost anything in sight hehe
¤quiet when uncomfortable¤likes
boys hihi ;]¤sweet to anyone..i think
¤im cute! hey
its my blog...let me do my thing hehe
¤i think im nice...kinda..i dunno
¤insomiac¤artistic
¤always smiling¤carefree!
¤not a responsible student hehe¤
boorkworm..hehe¤matalas ang dila hahaha!¤
i suck at english!¤not easily afraid¤
strong outside but actually sensitive..¤
hopeless romantic¤a typhical libra¤
a die hard iverson fan!!¤simple¤quiet¤
easily ammused¤loves to draw,and i think im good¤
hypeeeerrrr haha!jke!¤i love my friends and i treasure them o so much
¤opinionated¤i dont know how to relase my anger[i think ill
die from this one day eheh]¤punkrock princess¤
chocoholic¤always behing the looking glass¤
angelic?devilish?¤always broke¤
always concerned¤
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ive watched '5 people you'll meet in heaven...wow it was so..cool and inspirational and all that shit =] seriously...it is...i recommend all you people to watch it
there was that one scene in which the guy washed [anlaw nga daw e..filipina ung gurl asteg] a little girl..it was so deep...because everytime he kinda run thru the scar of the kid..it became clear and clean and all that...i was like whoa dude..why cant life be like that...as simple like that..sigh..with just one word...gesture..everything would be fine again..
one smile...and i died on to be revived by you
funny thing happened to me early this morning...you know those events in which you cant really remember what your doing and yet your not drunk with alcohol..just sleppy like shit ehheheh that kinda happened hehehhe =] i think i talked on the phone and even remembered a sms message that i read but got the hell of a shock when i read it again later ahhahah weird ^_^
[i try to fool myself to think ill be alright]
Another Beach Bum slept after24.4.05....
anwar has left american idol...and im starting to hate america...
huwaaaaaaaaay?! ang gling gling nya db...amp...
he was so good and sources told me that the reason of this sudden shit is because of some recent rumors which 'exposed' his sexuality...WTF?!
i dont care i still love him...
'i try to fool myself to think that ill be alright'...yeah...thats so true right now..i cant help it but flee everytime something good is bound to happen..i know its weird..its just that...i know somehow something bad is going to happen..and ill be left there...cursing my lil heart out..*sigh i just wish people would realize that the simple things emits the happiest momment in our life...like my friend said..
'life's to simple to complicate..'
[i try to fool myself to think ill be alright]
Another Beach Bum slept after22.4.05....
i saw this on my desktop..i think i was supposed to post this or something but forgot...it was dated april 7 so...read away =]
i just have to say say this...you know that weird feeling taht whenever your talking to someone and you think of someone else....well i always have those kind of momment that whenever i talk to someone that i like i kinda compare them to someone else...but then something happened to me today...while i was talking to someone i think i alrady like...i never thought of anyone else...i just thought of him...the one that im really talking to...the present..not someone from the past or the imaginary future...but i just thought of him and all those silly shit that we were talking about...eventhough i was in panicked for my lil world taht happens to be closing in on me...and making it harder and harder to breathe..i felt like i was stuck...stuck like a deer with those fucking headlights presuring me on what the fuck that i should do....yeah...in that momment of light...would you flee?
someone asked me if i like this one person..and i automatically said yes..i do...and it strucked me...what the fuck are you saying?are you just saying that?to make them happy or any shit like that...or is it because you really do..and it just came out as naturally as spit somes out when someone screams...then as you reflect..yes you do like him...but not like how you like the other one...and you cant somehow compare them...because its unfair...and they are two different person...and you cant just gauge your feeling for them just like that...lets just see how god plays with my destiny...
everything comes in pairs...maybe that's why theres something that is called free will or choices....but what sucks is when you have to chose from two different person which both have the same pros and cons...i cant elaborate much further on the said subject in hope to save atleast some face that could be usesd to face each...and yet fuck...i have to think on this...'choose one...or risk losding both'
cigarette is bad for your health...but good for some emotional illness....
such as craving...or blocking the sound of a voice...
[i try to fool myself to think ill be alright]
Another Beach Bum slept after22.4.05....
ive been well..spontaneous lately...
cant really imagine myself trying to find out how the other side lives or take wee..hahhaha yep..i went in the boys cr in sm heheh out of boredome really...we were about to watch th ring 2[which really did suck..try lng nten n buong movie ngststruggle akong gmcing...bd3p nuh syang pera!] and i think we were 30 mins early so we kinda have to wait so that we wouldnt spoil the ending or something...we were there just standing and shit when an idea hit me..i havent went in the boys cr all my life..i mean just those occasional glimpse [hey wasnt my fault really if they leave the fuckign door open...right? hahaha anyway so there i was...and the supid door..after confirming that there was no one inside the damn cr..i decided to run past it and look...heheh it was hella funny..i went in with aif and popo at first and took a picture of the door sign...just for the blog thing hehehe =] but i wasnt finished..i suddenly had this idea of a nice friendster pic with me peeing in those urinals on the wall..so after some more pondering on how i would do it..i went in with aif in hope that popo would follow me...but lo and behold when the door opened behind me..there was this 30 or something duy...bewildered with my friends screaming 'chahhhhaaa' in horror and laughing ahhahahhahahha it was so weird because i was alone with aif...and frankly that didnt look good at all...shit...so i ran past him leaving him weorded out and shit and laughed my merry little heart out outside...the thing is the receptionist saw it all and kinda hanged out outside the door looking at me with me laughing my ass off hahhahahah :D so anyway...still has this wicked idea about having my pic taken inside...maybe next time...wanna come?
my twin now has a boyfriend...yey! hahahhaha im sooo happy for her hahahhahahha :D oh yeah...this is molding to be one heck of a summer :D loving it dude
im really excited about reva's debut..because we would be celebrating it in puerto!waaahhhh!paradise [daydreams]
im really becoming addicted to reggae music...thanks to homer..but hell i really did like those kind of music but i think he kinda rekindled it or something because he was the one who gave me all those cool music...yeah listening to dove by moony right now..cool :D makes me think about going back to the beach and just hanging out..stargazing yeaaahh :D
speaking of stars and homer..he said he saw a falling star which lasted 7 sec..i was like oh fuck...why cant i spot one measly falling star?! fudge...starting to hate my eyes right now...
saw pao pao [twin] and dyan and nemoooo! ahahhahah i miss them sooo mush :D feels good to see them again...sigh oi mga dwarf!pmnta kau ng training andun lng ako :D
you know that beautiful pool scene with the endless blue shit and al...well that was the sight before me just this afternoon but then something just have to go wrong and something kinda invaded my peace and go in my eyes..fuck now its all red and teary and something...aw hell..im just gonna sleep it off or something...and besides...im tired..after hours or training [though it was light] and 2 rounds or scrimage...and 2 and a half laps of swimming...i cant believe i still had the energy to but some donuts and lunch..but after all that...its smooth sailing to dreamland :D
so im going back...in hope to that i could see my beloved beach again..and a little anwar or bob marley singing in the backround wouldnt hurt :D
oh yeah!one thing...why cant i just be loved? hell being 'well loved' is just to complicated...like i said...i like it simple like my philo teacher said...KISS....
'keep it simple..stupid'
[i try to fool myself to think ill be alright]
Another Beach Bum slept after20.4.05....
i never thought that i would eat a piece of dog food.....hahah but i did along with my friend-slash-cousin aif...
you dont believe me?well....i really cant blame you..but i did as in that little pellet shit that smells like something that you wouldnt want to know...its not that bad though...it kinda tastes like a very hard bread...maybe thats why they put some water on it..hmmm still cant get over the fact..
anyway when youre still not convince or anything..when i see you then ill show you the video ahhaha :D
im still confused..that's all i have to say about the matter...i tried to think about it all..i even went through that shower thing that stephen king does..and yet...still nothing...some things kinda cleared up...but like everything else....its too complicated...fuck...
oh yeah! im looking forward to waking up because even if i have to wake up early, i still would have the chance to play basketball again yehey! prozac =] the eternal problem solver and distraction...
all in all i love this game =]
arf arf arf hahhaha joke :D
[i try to fool myself to think ill be alright]
Another Beach Bum slept after14.4.05....
with nothing else to do lately...
ive discovered a new way to kill your finger tips..
guitars :D
yeah baby hahahhahah
nah something that i have been trying to learn...and now with all my spare time [or sleeping time as some of my friends would call it] im actually doing it...ive been looking at all those music sheets trying to learn all those stupid hand gestures taht you do with an air guitar and strumming like crazy heheh and were lucky enough that our neighbors are as deaf as we are heheheh :D yeah but im proud to say taht after some minor tries i could play 'ako'y sayo..' and im trying to learn some new shit that i could sing as well as play like those kitchie nadal songs[though i cant really sing that well] or barbie's cradle [yeah im trying to learn torpe...stupid song...i think my fingers would turn black even before i could perfect it...blah..] anyway...
oh yeah ive been thinking about doing that comic strip that was always playing around in my mind... maybe i will...once i find my pencil [which my sister barrowed and somehow it never came back to my hands] then im off...drawing those images in my head heheheh
oh yeah...something happened with my friendster that bothered me...a friend [though were not that close] deleted me from his account..though i try and try to think of other ways to jeep calm or any shit like that...but i find myself wanting to strangle him...fuck...why do taht...ive done nothing to offend him or anything...ive been a good little kid arounsd those people and what the fuck do i get...this....this stupid rejected feeling...well loved my ass...jess,pao,igi...im not well loved...im just lucky sometimes...
i know i know i should go on with my merry little way and laugh it off..maybe i will but for now..im arrggghhh....fudge....
soulmates..the one thing that i fear the most...and yet i said to my friend taht no..i dont believe in them...yet...why fear them?because somehow on the back of my mind i know i have one..i know that he's out there eating a watermelon on a hot day like this...or even just staring at nothing thinking...so why fear this big idiot?because...i might never find him...and taht scares me...i dont want to be alone...hey face it...no one really does even if they try to push you away you'll know that deep inside they still dont want you to go...so that....
im a normal human being...who just so happens to be cheezy at the said momment... so whatever...right?
[i try to fool myself to think ill be alright]
Another Beach Bum slept after13.4.05....
i love the simple things in life
the wonderful smell of clean clothes
the smell of rain
the taste of cold watermelon on a hot night
that smile that one could give or get
telephone conversations
'good morning'
'good night'
'sweet dreams'
chat session
sound trips
sarong and sands :D
waves crashing
falling stars
more sands
getting even woth those damn fishies
sleep
food and more food
ice creams
movie trips
swimming
basketball bouncing
....and
answers....
[i try to fool myself to think ill be alright]
Another Beach Bum slept after11.4.05....
my infatuation with you is taking me to ang emotional high why must everything be so complicated...when it all comes down to one thing love... and all that shit
who?
i dont know either...
i desperately want to know...
amp....
[i try to fool myself to think ill be alright]
Another Beach Bum slept after10.4.05....
how right is that?hahah claustrophobic n ata akoo....pro carry yan...db :D rock on! hahaha anu papalag?!You Are A Rowan Tree
You are full of charm and cheer. You light up a room.
And while you crave attention, you do it without ego.
You are an interesting mix of contradictions - and very unpredictable.
You are both dependent and independent, calm and restless.
You are passionate, emotional, gregarious, and (at times) unforgiving.
The Bottom Line
Your routine is suddenly in disarray. Flexibility is crucial. Nothing's set in stone.
In Detail
It's not just your imagination. Everything really is happening in sets of two -- which just so happens to be your favorite number. And with things going along as well as they are, you're only too happy not just to share, but to cut everyone in on your happiness. So when a friend ambles by with a sad story -- or two -- you'll be happy to give them some time. And you'll make them feel better, too.
[i try to fool myself to think ill be alright]
Another Beach Bum slept after6.4.05....
and i think im falling.....
i want to blame the stupid mole that's stuck on my tear's pathway...or all those chain letters that i didnt send...or the fact that im just a hopeless romantic...stuck on a pessimist's body...but other than that...im just plainly...
confused....
or rather not...
i will not be a fool....
ive already stared at the supid finger that's pointing to the sky
so now...its time to turn around and look up
and hope for a better tommorow...
with someone that could give my smiles back
that reachs my eyes....
and the one
that could show me
my first falling star......
[i try to fool myself to think ill be alright]
Another Beach Bum slept after6.4.05....
puerto galera!
hehe now that ive recharged my body..its story telling time...one thing that's crystal clear though, puerto galera is the bomb and i never want to leave...
first day:
night before, we were so excited that we didnt sleep and yeah because we got so fascinated with doing our own henna hahaha :D then about 5 we left kat's place to meet up in jolibee alabang where we'll try out luck in finding a shuttle that would take us to the abtangas pier. we found one that was relatively cheap and so off we go on the batangas pier i think we waited for 1 hour for that stupid ferry ride so we killed time by reading some shit and more henna hehe
upon arrival we were at awe...i think we arrived first on la laguna and had to take a 'shuttle' [a jeep whose driver i think has something against us because he was zooming through the zigzag road...amd somehow they were the one which made me dizzy like hell]
once we were on the white beach, we were so excited in swimming that once we were there we ran to the beach and tried to soak up everything on one mere experience hehe that night we still had the energy [for some weird miracle] to 'party' we were invited to join kat's friend to join them and we almost did buuut...i dont know why but we didnt. so we end drinking on our own [kind of they were technically beside us] on did some star gazing so after some more drinking they went away for some reason and left paolo [who passed out in the beach..] with thier friend homer. he talked with us [to kat mainly] and kind of looked out for paolo [who was still sleeping peacefully on the beach] until asi came and said something about them going to some bar to drink some more so he left us and we tried to join them, but once again we didnt so we didnt join them and just walked for a while scouting some bar that was nice enough for us to stay in. there they drink a little more and kind of hang until eric [our "guy" friend] said that he was going back to the cottege and i was so tired that i can barely keep my eyes open so i went with him and with one smooth movement [walking like a drunk kid to the bed and crawling in place and closing my eyes] i was asleep.
second day
woke up roughly at 8 in the morning and since this was our last day to soak up all the sun and beach that we could get we all got up early to swin and such. i think we went to the beach at noon to soak up the sun and get the tan that we all wanted to have [mine only lasted for i think a day...i dont know whats in our blood that we cant really get all dark and all] and after learning about a cave in the far end of the beach so we tried our luck and went thier. we were in some way weirded out to see a tiny hole on the foot of a big rock that serves as a kind of wall. after some thought and the excitenebt to see what chris [bangis...kat's friend] and his friends saw on the other side..so we crawled like hell [or 'snake walk' according to eric] to get to the other side with our other friends [namely mae, yu, layn and mave] staying on the other side because they were claustrophobic or something. on the other side we were all speachless because of the scenery before us...it was so beautiful :D so we kind of swim there [i was in my exploring mode so i searched the whole place climbing and such] until some kid said that our friends on the other side were waiting and would like to have the key so they could just go...we panicked so we left that little 'the beach' scene and kind of panicked because we cant think of a way to crawl back in the stupid cave but thanks to the kid we got the trick on how to get out 'smoothly'
so anyway when night came we were all hyper and all because it was our last night there so we have to enjoy every ounce of puerto. so we had this inuman sessiong with kat's friends and after which we tried to follow them to this place called hiyas but we kind of backed away because we really dont know who those people were...so with our trusty sarong...we just hanged out with eric screaming somethings that i would not like to mention here but it was hell of a funny thing and because of that some guys came near us to introduce themselves..i kind of have to admit that i was pretty annoyed with some of them so i was pretty feisty as some would say...so anyway after some time of waiting again...i got to talk to homer and just talked and walk to the other side of the beach with mae and geoff [i think that's how its spelled] just to pee hehehe homer is a nice guy really...really funny :D so anyway we tried to catch a glimpse of the sunrise but because of the alcohol i think and the exhaustion, we gave up to our sleepiness and just slept hahahahha :D
third day...
because we slept at around 6..we woke up at 10 and panicked because our ferry ride was scheduled to leave at 12...so anyway...after some of that delicious mango ice cream we all board our ship [i was stuck really in the middle with the guitar so i cant really move] and there was the shuttle ride where i was stuck on the back with all our belongings but it was all cool because i was still comfortable...all in all it was cool :D
heheh yep all in all it was uber fun..i was so sad when we have to leave the beach...but now tha tim back to reality...let see how things will go...or something like that..
life's a beach...arent you glad??
[i try to fool myself to think ill be alright]
Another Beach Bum slept after4.4.05....
i love puerto :D
nuff said for now...im tired..i just came from puerto galera..and i love everyminute of my stay there even if there was those times that i like to eat those little fishies that kept on bitting us...but all in all its all good :D yep...life's a beach
yeah...thinking about changing the outlook of my blog...yeah...expect some dramatic changes :D
[i try to fool myself to think ill be alright]
Another Beach Bum slept after3.4.05....